Lazy Summer day here at home.

Just another day at home. Many ask why we spend so much time at home. We stay home because it's so hard to go out. A park? Well you can't take your eyes off James and you have to stay within grabbing reach of him. You see, James gets bored at the park very quickly and wants to run off. This can be a cat or dog he wants to follow or another family leaving. He loves motorcycles and wants to chase them down the street, or an airplane that is flying over that he wants to follow. If he's not running off he's throwing the bark chips on the other kids. Jessica also gets bored at the park quickly but she gravitates to other kids and you have to stay within ear shot of her. She also gets mad and bosses not just her brother but the other kids as well. I almost always leave the park feeling the why did I bother feeling.

The constant fighting with the kids again today. James is hyper as always. Nothing interests him more then picking fights with his sister. Like grabbing her stuft animals she isn't playing with at the moment. I swear he does this just to make her mad. He takes off with anything that belongs to her. She was on the computer and he proceeded to grab the key board and hit the keys. Of course she gets frustrated and screams at him. In turn this just gets him to scream his loud obnoxious scream. Its ear piercing. I try to get him to play with his cars, trains, blow bubbles outside, ride his bike, play a video game, and color. He doesn't want any part of any of that. He just wants to pester his sister.

I take a moment to myself during the calming parts of my day. All this, every day this week and to top it off I haven't gotten to sleep before 1 AM all week. I'm wiped out and want to sleep but for some reason sleep just isn't coming to me. I have so much on my to do list that I am feeling over whelmed with it. James hasn't used the potty for his BM's in weeks. Today he decided that it was OK to pee on the stairs and in the kitchen. Easy to clean up but still time consuming and still have a house that looks like a tornado hit it. I guess it's better that this time he went pee in the house and not out the front door. I am sure that my neighbors have some bad feelings about us. I can grantee they hear the shouting of the kids. Sometimes it sounds like they are killing each other. Laundry today is all the poop clothes from yesterday and today. Jessica rushes and doesn't want to wipe and James doesn't want to use the potty at all. So it's a two hour sanitise load followed by a two hour bleach cycle of white wash clothes I used to clean him up. 4 hrs and two loads. Sometimes I wonder how anything else gets washed around here. The few times James has used to potty to pee has left me 3 bathrooms that need a good scrub down. I would like to spend a day smelling roses and not the smell of poop and pee and bathroom cleaners. An observation of James today. He spilled his bubbles and out of frustration dumped the rest and then threw the bottle across the porch.

Jessica made up a few lies today. Nothing serious just little ones. One was that she didn't sneak bread into the bathroom and eat it. She doesn't need to sneak food. She knows how to help herself and that she can ask for something more to eat. Another was when I couldn't find the key for my door all day. She came out of her room then walked by my door and came downstairs saying she found it on the floor. Another one that a foster daughter we had in our home a few years back, got a real tattoo. It was an airbrush tattoo from the fair. Pics on Facebook. I'm not sure how to handle all these little lies. I call her out on them and tell her it's not OK to lie. I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall.